ART: Not for Sale

Over the years there have been a few pieces of art that I created that I had every intention of selling, however, it found its way into my heart and I just couldn’t part with it.

This one fits in that category.

free falling 2 cropped

I created “free falling” in late 2015 when I was just starting to only make abstract art. I was finally painting larger—30×40—and was not so intimidated by the huge canvas. I remember telling myself that I could do it and to just keep at it until I was happy with it. Honestly, the creative process was almost as difficult as giving birth!

There was so much emotion involved. I was adding paint and then hating it so then I was painting over it or scrubbing the paint off.  I remember feeling so unsure with each stroke of the brush. I was questioning my every move. Is this where I should make a mark? Is this a good mark? Is there too much pink? Should I add some black here?

As I passed through the “ugly teenager” stage and moved into the home stretch, I was feeling much better. The voices in my head were telling me I could do it. I was getting the boost of confidence I needed to continue. Although I was still questioning my actions, it was with less vigor. I was being kinder to myself.

I never got around to varnishing it. Once I hung it up, it remained above my bed. You won’t be seeing a “for sale” sign anytime soon. It is a daily reminder that I CAN paint. I CAN be creative. I CAN work through the difficulty. I CAN be an artist.

I AM an artist.

Have you had a similar experience with your art? Tell me about it. I’d love to hear from you!

Keep on creating,


PS:  I’m now offering prints on canvas, paper and metal on my website.


ART: Not for Sale

2 thoughts on “ART: Not for Sale

  1. Barb says:

    Hi Betty
    I can completely relate to your emotional frustration while creating your abstract work. I’ve been leaning more towards abstraction and find it much more difficult than any other form of painting that I’ve done. I also find myself removing paint, scraping off, painting over and constantly questioning where to put what color, line or smudge! It is a bit like childbirth ( I have 4 kids so lots of experience with that kind of creation!).
    An artist lives a somewhat isolated existance alone in the studio for hours at a time inside their own heads so it’s comforting to hear that other very experienced aritists struggle with the same challenges, but keep on going until it feels right.
    Your artwork is beautiful and thought provoking – love the one over the bed!
    Thank-you for sharing!


  2. Diane Novak says:

    I totally relate. I went to an art high school and then to a school that I had no business going to that was backwards and took all the progress I had made in feeling good about my ‘work’ into the toilet. I don’t produce a lot each year because I am so critical of my own work. And I seem to only be able to focus on whimsy and not the type of work people buy. I love your work though. It’s very inspiring as is your story. Diane


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