Over the years there have been a few pieces of art that I created that I had every intention of selling, however, it found its way into my heart and I just couldn’t part with it.
This one fits in that category.
I created “free falling” in late 2015 when I was just starting to only make abstract art. I was finally painting larger—30×40—and was not so intimidated by the huge canvas. I remember telling myself that I could do it and to just keep at it until I was happy with it. Honestly, the creative process was almost as difficult as giving birth!
There was so much emotion involved. I was adding paint and then hating it so then I was painting over it or scrubbing the paint off. I remember feeling so unsure with each stroke of the brush. I was questioning my every move. Is this where I should make a mark? Is this a good mark? Is there too much pink? Should I add some black here?
As I passed through the “ugly teenager” stage and moved into the home stretch, I was feeling much better. The voices in my head were telling me I could do it. I was getting the boost of confidence I needed to continue. Although I was still questioning my actions, it was with less vigor. I was being kinder to myself.
I never got around to varnishing it. Once I hung it up, it remained above my bed. You won’t be seeing a “for sale” sign anytime soon. It is a daily reminder that I CAN paint. I CAN be creative. I CAN work through the difficulty. I CAN be an artist.
I AM an artist.
Have you had a similar experience with your art? Tell me about it. I’d love to hear from you!
Keep on creating,
PS: I’m now offering prints on canvas, paper and metal on my website.